Hi! It's been a while since I've actually blogged, and I'm not even sure if anybody clicks on these things and reads them anymore, but hello anyways!
It's October. I'm in love with this month. It's a shame there's only 14 days left. It still feels like summer out, though. Junior year's been hectic, and I feel like I'm trying to be exceptionally scrupulous (aha! like my exquisite use of an SAT vocabulary word?) with certain situations regarding a few friendships at the moment. Oh, I miss my blogging days. I don't really care if anybody stumbles upon these. I just need to rant because, you see, this mind is overactive and I stress on these details if I don't write them down somewhere. Back to the topic at hand! Oh, wait. It's just a disarray of thoughts. Well, on that note. I'll talk about school again and how it's consuming my life. I don't care for 'enchantments of the heart' right now. No thanks. People suck and they get in your way. I wish I could sincerely mean that, but I really do love people. Well, love would be strong. People intrigue me, as do their social habits and peculiarities. It's odd, but I'm participating in my own life this year. I know, how can you not be participating in life for sixteen years? It's easy. You exist and focus on school and doing what you're supposed to do and nothing for your own self interest. You're a wallflower. I know, I know. The term's being overused at this particular moment, but it's the most elementary way to describe it. I'm actually not as opposed to participating as I thought I'd be. I'm truly starting to like other human beings, and some people are really worth trusting. Other ones, you simply acknowledge, keep your mouth shut, and give them vague responses when they ask about your life. It's really hard to trust half the people I'm friends with. Naturally, I've gravitated towards people on the internet with a similar issue. It's been great, but it's so much easier when you can trust tangible people in your own lives. Not that you're all not tangible human beings, it's just nice to be able to hug someone when you need to. I really recommend trying it out. I know, it sounds horrible. 'People at school?!?! Trust them?!?!?!?!?!'' Just try it. Things will progress nicely, you'll see. :) Well, that was quite a tangent. I'd even transitioned into school talk and didn't go on to mention the excitement of it all! Grades and tests and quizzes. Glad that spared you.
She Who Must Not Be Named Because After All This Is The Internet And I Just Ranted